John, sometimes life can seem impossible, and we start questioning things....I hope you find peace and direction. My enjoyment started fading away on bikes after my wife and my brother were diagnosed with Cancer. a long ride, just caused me to think and worry more and played mind games with me, and I always found myself racing to get back home. Then I was forced into surgeries on both hands and have not been able to ride in over a year. Now I am not sure I will be able to ride my Pan anymore. I am also facing the fact my real job may retire me and force me out after 30 years. However, I have found purpose and peace in helping folks on this forum and its helped me get through the last couple difficult years. I am starting to think about downsizing to a smaller bike (maybe a new triumph T-100) something small, light, and fun again! Every once in a while I need to step back and remember WHY we ride in the first place. For me its never been to be the fastest, go the farthest, have the biggest, but the freedom from the stress of life.
Right now the only thing I can ride on is my Honda Metropolitan....and you know, that's OK.
If you find your at the cross roads of parting ways with riding motorcycles, don't fear it, embrace what your next chapter in life has in store for you.
You will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Larry & Christy Igofar